Friday, May 25, 2007
i am so confused right now di ko alam kung anong dapat gawin..... my mind is torn between my desires and what is right, lam ko naman na nung una palang ayokong umalis pro no choice ako so napunta ko d2 and ever since ng mapunta ko d2 all i ever wanted was to go back home =( i was so depressed di ko lam kung pano ko kokontrolin yung sadness na nararamdaman ko at that time i was praying and hopping that one day makakauwi rin ako ulit.... days...weeks... months... had passed but still wala paring progress ang life ko d2.... until dumating yung time na nagkaroon ng chance ang mom ko na sabihin sa dad ko na gus2 nya na umuwi kmi... pagka gising ko kinausap ako agad ng dad ko he was asking me if i want to go back home.....speechless ako i just answered him with a smile, d ko kc ineexpect na daratin yung ganung moment, na c papa yung magsasabi na bibigyan nya kmi ng chance na umuwi pro after saying that may pahabol xa he said na wala daw sisihan if ever na makauwi kmi, i feel happy and at thesame time threatened lam ko ugali ng papa ko....he stick to his words and matigas tlaga xa though i know d nya kmi pababayaan i'm still scared pro gus2 ko tlagang umuwi sobrang gus2ng gus2 and my mom feels the same way too maxado na xang malungkot d2 mdalas xang npapaiyak because of depression..... what was bothering me is that pag umuwi ako it'll be hard for me to go into college coz nagstop ako for a year and aside from that classes had started na for sure pag umuwi ako... makakapag enroll man ako sa 2nd sem na pro sabi ng mom ko mahirap lalo na pag nursing course na kukunin ko......d ko na tlaga alam gagawin ko or iisipin ko.... Pero isa lang yung pinaka sure na ako sobrang happiness yung nafeel ko nung cnabi ng papa ko na bibigyan nya kmi ng chance na mkauwi.......
BHUbye.... ;
,love eating siomai and palabok,5'3 my height and reall pinay complexion, friendly din,kinda sabog minsan, a little bit emotional, chocolate lover,uhm known as tibo when i was a kid....a religous girl pero a bit agressive, i'm a girl that does not know how to made my own decisions...i love pillows and any soft stuff...weird din minsan and may mood swings paminsan minsan a very predictable girl once you see me you'll know my attitude....a very emotional girl..cry baby daw??..adict in numbers 1,5,3 and 15, this site is all about my thoughts so please respect it....xenxa na kung most of the topics are all about love coz that's me yun talaga nsa utak ko hehe 